Lonely

So today I realized how lonely I feel even when I'm with my family. I used to be a part of my family and now that I'm married with a baby I always feel like an outsider looking in when I visit. Nobody lets me know about things going on, I'm not invited into pictures, I don't get invited anywhere even when I can't make it and when they get together for family celebrations like birthdays I am always the one who gets left out. I know that things are different because we are our own little family now, brad Sam and I. But I do love the rest of my family and sometimes it would be nice if someone texted me a picture of their new tattoos or called and said hey were going to lunch want to join? Or even grab me in for a picture while you are snapping away on ur phone. It's just sad I guess to have spent so much of my life bonded with them and now it's all different. I wouldn't trade my life with brad and Sam for anything i guess I just wish I could have my cake and eat it too.