Still nothing

I don't know what I thought a day would do. Having cramps now. Figured I'm going to have my period. This sucks!

Addicted

So here is that time of month again where I should start my period in 2 days and I was so sure I had sex on the right days. (ALL OF THE RIGHT DAYS) and still saying negative. I have a problem. I don't know why i keep taking so many especially since they keep telling me what I don't want to hear. "No- you're not pregnant" jeez! I thought getting pregnant was easy.... Yea not so much.

Boo

I am annoyed as hell. my husband is trying to use the house as an excuse not to work hard during his school for respiratory therapy. He says that he will have class Monday Wednesday Thursday and Friday and that he's not going to be able to work while he's in the program. That is still three days every week that he can work which is what he works now three days a week. Time to grow up and be a big boy and do the things that are necessary to get by in this life which is working hard. I was not the only one who bought this house you bought it with me. If we lost our cable we lost our Internet and we lost our phone and you stop by magic cards. all the time we would have plenty of money to get by. Don't even try to think about blaming me for buying a house because you can't suck it up and not have a day off. If you work hard for two years then you will have your degree and we will be fine.

Convincing

Isn't it funny that its still one week yet until my expected period that I find myself with the need to take a THIRD pregnancy test. Like even if I was pregnant now a test would magically tell me a week before it would even show. I told myself tonight that if it was negative (which even if I am pregnant a negative would be my result this early) that I wouldn't take another one unless I'd miss my period. Yea totally made myself see a FAINT blue line (which is probably all in my head) convincing myself if I just wait a few more days my hcg levels would rise enough for early tests to be positive. I'm crazy, I'm baby fever crazy! I don't understand where this need to be a mother to a billion babies comes from. I guess God just meant me to be a mother. :D ill take it! That's all, I'm wiped out. Long day at work then five hour trip almost to STL yuck. Night!

Feeling Down

As usually my body aches. Actually today it's throbbing, yelling, screaming at me. I worked all weekend with three more days ahead of me (*sigh) and even laying in bed my legs are cramping so I am constantly moving them and my hips are killing me like an old lady on a sex spree! My ankles throb, my shoulders are burning. I have had numbness in my hands all day but the worst is my back. It's sending shooting pain up and down my body. I think I may have overdone it today. And I'm afraid I've got another ovarian cyst. My pelvic area is hurting bad today too. Hoping tomorrow will be better. Really want to take Sam swimming at the YMCA. Thanks for reading my rant.

Stupid Weather

I hate weather changes, especially web they happen so fast. Couple weeks ago we had a foot or more of snow on the ground, this week it's humidity And tornado watches. My hips feel like I'm a 90 year old woman and my joints are puffed up like marshmallows in a microwave. :( I wish pain would just go away.

Frustrating

It's frustrating to be so debilitated with something no one can see or understand. I went thrift shopping for 6 hours today with my husband and daughter and I am in so much pain! I've been in my couch since we arrived home with ice. Usually like my heating pad but that decided to break on me tonight and I don't have the energy to go get a new one. I've given in to pain meds know full well it may make it so I'm not in tears anymore but hopefully it will help me sleep. And its so awful that my husband doesn't care/understand. Or at least he seems like that. So passive when I say how miserable I am. I guess I should put myself in his shoes. I'm sure it would mke me nuts to hear him say the same thing every day. :( but still every once and a while I just wish he would say "honey, I'm so sorry you're hurting. It must be awful, what can I do for you?"

Baby Fever

By the way, ally friends are pregnant. It's sad because I am sooo happy for them all but SO JEALOUS at the same time. I know I've had my turn and I've got all kinds of new exciting things happening but I want more babies!

Done.

So the stress of moving has seemed to have settled. We are officially in our new home. Closed and all! Can hardly believe that we own a home. Although the last several weeks have definitely taken a toll on my body. The last few days, especially the ones I've worked I have been in terrible pain. As in I hardly wanted to get up to take care of my patients I hurt so bad. My friend Kristen was wonderful enough to research and order a new TENS unit for me which has meant the difference between calling off and being bedridden and working several 12 hr shifts in a row. I have been taking hot baths and meds and using hot pack. Still pain is bad, barely manageable. I am doing more research and using my herbs but I don't notice a difference yet. My stomach has started acting up as well. Threw up for first time in new house less than one week after move in. :( no good. But I now have the next four days off. I'm so excited. Brad wants to go thrifting and I'm fighting with myself on whether I should or not. We really need to save and there is nothing we NEED. He just wants to find things for his game room. Although I do have to admit the last few times we've gone I have found a lot of great deals. It's addicting. Massage again tomorrow, well see if she can get the ton of knots that I have worked out or at least down so my fingers get their feeling back!

Pissed off letter

My name is Sarah Jacobs. I am attempting to purchase a property at 4918 West Washington Street in Belleville, Illinois. I am writing this letter to you because I wanted everyone involved in this transaction to be aware of my frustration. My scheduled closing date was April second at ten in the morning. I was informed at four in the afternoon on April first that this closing had to be cancelled or postponed to a later date because a quit claim deed had not been properly obtained for our property. I was understandably upset that our date had changed and I was finding out less than 24 hours before our scheduled closing. I made phone calls and had my real estate agent get involved and speak with the selling agent. There were multiple people involved in this transaction, so I will be sending this to all parties. So after this issue had been “resolved”, a new closing date was scheduled for April 3 at 1:30 in the afternoon. So after believing that these issues were taken care of I re-rented a Uhaul, loaded the entire contents of my current residence and was ready to unload in a home when I found out LESS than one hour before our scheduled closing that we again could not close because there was yet another glitch. After several hours of phone calls back and forth I was told that this closing would not happen April 3. Because I have a written contract with Settlement date included stating on page 1 of the addendum, paragraph 2, section a: “It is agreed that the time is of the essence with respect to all dates specified in the Agreement. This means that all deadlines are intended to be strict and absolute.” This legal statement makes me believe that it is acceptable to expect to be in our new home on the day of closing and that our closing date and time is final. I have had address’s changed so I will be expecting mail delivery to new property, I have scheduled utility companies to come and read meters, cable company to set up service, movers to assist in heavy lifting, not to mention renting a uhaul for ONE day that will now turn out to be several days which I do not have a reservation for and truck will need to be turned in before 5 pm on April 4. I will now have to unload all personal belongings into a storage unit as we have given notice to our current landlord believing we would have a property at this time. I am being put into an extremely inconvenient situation and I had hoped that professionals such as yourselves would understand my predicament and assist in a satisfactory and timely matter to correct any delays you have created. I understand that things sometimes fall through the cracks but I had a signed contract in hand February second. This is sufficient time to prepare all documents needed to close and had there been an issue, I should have been informed in a timely manner. Less than 24 hours and less than one hour to closing is an inappropriate time. I will be contacting anyone necessary to convey the amount of frustration and resistance I have encountered over the last several days. This has been a very unscrupulous process and I will no longer have a good experience to pass along to other people who are interested in purchasing a home that deals with Fisher and Shapiro. I still, as of current, do not have a time and date for closing.

Big Day

Tomorrow is the big day. Here I come new home!